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I spent part of yesterday afternoon working on my decluttering and rearranging project. More furniture was moved, the books that had been piled on the floor for several days were reshelved once I decided where to put the bookshelf, dusting and vacuuming were done–all in all, I spent about an hour and a half working away at what I want done and I’m totally counting that as my activity for the day. There’s still more to be done, but I feel good about what was accomplished yesterday.

Also done–hat number 28! Off the needles, ends woven in, and ready to join its brothers and sisters in the tidy and growing pile of hats I have. That felt good, too. Number 29 will be cast on later.

It’s very cold–a frigid 3 degrees at 10:30–and it’ll be another day spent inside, aside from a quick run to get the mail, but there’s plenty to do. And the sun’s out! The sun was out. It’s hiding now. Boo. I’m reminding myself that every day that passes is another day closer to spring–only 47 more to go! Roll on, spring!

I gave in

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To a craving, that is, and that led to overeating last night.

I don’t often want red meat, but when I do,  I want a big ol’ hamburger. I got one last night and it was so good! Also so big, and on a big bun, and I think the combination of red meat and bread for dinner led to my eating later on.

I’m working toward reversing my eating–instead of a small breakfast, moderate lunch, and big dinner, I am trying to swap the order so my smallest meal of the day is at night, and so I’m not eating after around 8:00 p.m. I’m not doing so hot in achieving these goals. For one, I’m seldom hungry in the morning. I often don’t have breakfast until 11:00 a.m. or so–and if you’re wondering, it’s 11:05 as I write this, and yep, I’m having my breakfast now–but lunch is always noonish. It’s usually not much more than a sandwich and I’m satisfied with that until around 3:00, when I tend to get peckish. An apple and a piece of string cheese keep me happy until dinnertime, and then–well, who knows what I’ll eat? It’s often heavy, carb-laden stuff, and too much to boot. While I’ve done well in cutting off my eating by 8:00 most nights, a craving of epic strength hit me last night after that burger on a bun and I gave in. More bread and the piece of chocolate I’d bought went down the hatch.

All this is not so much to condemn myself as to try to understand what’s going on, what my triggers are, and how to avoid them. I know, for example, when I have a migraine I need to avoid anything sugary, cheese, and bananas. There’s a definite cause-and-effect there, and if I’m to avoid even more pain than I already have, I’d do well not to eat those foods. The “but” here is this–it took me a lot longer to own that out than it should have. I knew that eating that stuff was making me feel worse, but I kept doing it anyway until I’d finally had enough. Same thing applies to my eating at night. I “know” carbs are bad for me at night, but I’m stalling with putting that knowledge into practice. It’s the “why”  I need to get to now. Or I could just stop and let the “why” work itself out in its own time. I think maybe I’ve finally had enough.

I feel good

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Yesterday, it was yoga.

I hadn’t attempted yoga in years and forgot how challenging it can be, even doing only the “simple” moves. It left me aching but energized, and one move in particular made me feel like an Amazon–more on that some other time. How great is that? My legs are still on the sore side, but it was so worth it, and I’ll be adding some yoga into the mix on a regular basis, I think. Anything that makes me feel that good is okay by me!

Today is weight training day, and though I’ll follow the same routine I’ve been using, I’m going to step it up a notch and use heavier weights. I think I’m ready for more of a challenge, and I’m looking forward to it.

I’m a little amazed by how much better I’m feeling in just a few short days of small doses of exercise. I’ve nattered on about exercise and its systemic effects for ages now, but I’ve neglected to put it into practice and had semi-forgotten how good it is–how good it feels to move, how much it affects mood, and how lucky I am to be able to move. I want to hang onto all that!

Today, I’m focusing on what’s going right, and how to take advantage of the little bit of momentum I’ve got going. I’m feeling optimistic and that feels good!

I’m baaack!

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I’m back from what felt like too short a tech sabbath. I was only very mildly tempted to log on once or twice, but for the most part, it was a refreshing time away from this small box that sucks up so much of my time. I did laundry and chores, read, napped, knit (hat number 28 is coming along swimmingly, and I also did a bit of knitting on a project that’s been in time out for a while), watched Downton Abbey (and holy cow, I did NOT see that coming!) and The Fugitive–the series, not the movie–and kept up with my 3-H goals.

With the month of January almost over, I’m looking ahead some to next month and what I’d like to accomplish in February. I’ve settled on an overarching theme for the month, thanks to my friend T, and am making plans to challenge myself a little more, to deliberately push out of my comfort zones, to do and be more. Stay tuned!

I don’t know about you, but February is often one of the most difficult months of the year for me to cope with. It’s still firmly in the grips of Old Man Winter but so agonizingly close to spring–I guess it’s a good thing it’s a shorter month. There’s also that damn day smack in the middle of the month–you know the one–and for me, there are loads and loads of bittersweet memories throughout the month. I’m not taking it lying down this year, though. February, you are on notice! It’s going to be a month of challenges, growth, and a good dose of sass, so watch out.

I said it before, and I’ll say it again–2013 is gonna be my year. I’m making it my year. The sass? it’s on the way back.




Week in review

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It’s January 26th, and one week into my 3-H experiment. Time for a little look back at the week that was, doncha think?

Despite it not being a great week either physically or emotionally, and keeping in mind that the day isn’t over yet, I kept to my commitment to at least ten minutes of deliberate movement per day. I wasn’t always enthused about it, particularly on the day of the migraine, but I did it, and I’m pleased that I did. You may think ten minutes is a piddling thing, and it might be for you, but it wasn’t for me. You do this and tell me you’re not breathing hard at the end of it. I did my best to alternate cardio and weight training and I never thought I’d enjoy messing around with dumbbells, but I really did. And though I was using only one pound weights, I’m feeling the effects of those exercises, too.

All in all, I’m giving myself a gold star for Health this week. I pushed myself some, I kept at it even when I didn’t much feel like it, I mixed things up, and it did me good. I plan to continue what I’ve been doing for the next week.

I did a better job of shutting off the computer after I was through with work, but not a great job, and then I often substituted TV for computer use after. It’s something to keep working on, and I will keep this on my list of Happiness goals for the upcoming week. No gold star here.

I’m very happy to report that I met my Heart goal this week and even did it one better. Hat number 27 is off the needles as of this morning, meaning I’ve met not only the goal for the week, but for the month of January. I’m not quitting now! Number 28 will very likely be cast on later today. Gold star? You bet! My goal for the week ahead is to complete number 28 and at least have number 29 cast on.

Some other observations on the week that was: I found myself correcting my posture more often. I’m a slumper but caught myself sitting a little straighter, standing a little taller, and generally feeling a bit less rounded. That’s a good thing! There were also moments when I had a glimpse of the me-that-could-be, when I visualized a stronger, healthier, happier, thinner me. That future me was awfully appealing, and I look forward to meeting her–and being her–in the months to come.

You know what? I can do it!

ETA: I’m planning a tech sabbath beginning later today–I’ll likely be back on Monday. Have a great weekend, all!

Later that same day: I had a somewhat challenging and very frosty walk this afternoon. Not for the first time, I thought that maybe I should knit myself a hat–I dang near froze my ears off in the icy wind. Oddly enough, though, I was all sweaty once I got out of the wind. Then I ate chocolate, and I am unrepentant. This isn’t the first time I’ve had chocolate since I cut back on sugar so drastically, but it was undeniably the best. It felt like what it should be–a rare treat that was rich, decadent, and naughty. I savored every bit of it.


Freeplay Friday

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For you fans of the freeplay–I know you missed it last week! (I write that with tongue firmly in cheek–I’ve been told in no uncertain terms that some folks don’t like Freeplay Friday. Tough noogies. My blog–my rules. Neener neener!)

I hadn’t thought about this song in ages, though it was at one time getting some heavy play on my personal playlist. Why I thought of it as I was drifting off to sleep last night, I don’t know, except I’ve been thinking of, and longing for, home a great deal lately. I am that wayfaring stranger, or that’s how I often feel. That’s not perhaps as gloomy as it may first appear–though I long for home, I’m glad I know what home truly feels like, and even if I never go there again–well, I know what it feels like. Some people never do.


Nice men and other things

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I’m reminded once again why I dislike winter so much. It’s a frigid, gloomy day, and I’m thinking maybe I should have invested in a SAD light before winter started. These oppressive days really get to me, and not in a good way. I’m working my way out of the funk I’ve been in the last couple of days or so, but it’s hard work. Seriously, I’m leaving Iowa the second I can. One more Iowa winter might just do me in.

That said, I did wake with a bit of a lighter heart this morning. I faced up to a task yesterday that wasn’t easy for me, but it was necessary. I’d been more or less asked out, as in for a date, and I’d initially accepted, but it just felt all kinds of wrong to me afterward and I spent the next several days wrestling with my conflicted feelings. The man doing the asking is a lovely man, smart and charming and handsome and funny, and any girl ought to be good with that kind of guy, but what it came down to for me was that I’d feel like I was cheating. I just couldn’t do it, go out with this nice man, because however nice he is, he isn’t the nice man who holds my heart, and I had to tell that to the man who asked me out. Call me a sap if you want–I’m not the cheating kind, and it doesn’t matter if Mr. F would ever know or not. I would, and I can’t do it.

The other nice man in question was very gracious and understanding, and we will remain friends. That’s a good thing, and a heck of a lot better than going ahead with something I know isn’t right with me, regretting it, and losing a friend whom I value.

In other news, I’ve been keeping up with my commitment to my 10 minutes of deliberate activity during the day, I’m shutting my computer down earlier, if not exactly right after I’m done working for the day, and hat number 26 is off the needles. Number 27 is scheduled to be cast on later today. Woot! It feels good to look back at the end of the day and see that I’ve accomplished something.

And I’m reminding myself that each day that passes is one day closer to spring. It can’t get here soon enough!